In the Name of Needs

Kimmy,

I do not know what prompted me to write this confession of how I fared through my college days. Maybe just like the others who shared, I just want to have someone else know of my story and I am just hoping that they can use it in whatever way they find it useful. I am currently a licensed engineer now and is blessed to land a good paying job. Looking back at where I came from I am torn between pride and shame of what I gave away to get this far. Due to grim financial constraints experienced by my family, my government scholarship does not suffice to fund my schooling. There were many times when I was short of funds that I would not be eating my meals just so I could save something for the things required for my classes. There were times that tightening the belt is not enough to satisfy the hunger for material things. I am not a person of luxury but is it luxury to desire for better food to eat and better clothes to wear? that alongside the desire to be able to buy the books on time and pay for every need that is a requisite to my studies. So I peddled myself to get those additional funds. I can not count how many times, I did it and to be honest I enjoyed some of it. Some to my classmates and some to random people who made the offer. Up to now I feel dirty but I am practical enough to realize that it was called for that time. That experience inspires me up to now and I can say that I have earned what I have the hard way.

Anthony

Dearest Anthony,

Thank you for trusting me to propagate this letter. In Tagalog, salamat sa pagtitiwalang binigay mo na ako ang magkalat ng kwento mong ito. hahaha. So what can I say? I am merely answering concerns and based on your letter you seem not to be asking any opinions from me. But I will still air my opinion regardless of whether you asked for it or not.

Maybe your case is one of the rare cases of substantiating the reasons for prostitution. I am not that 100% convinced though that that would have been the best way to do it. There are a lot of call centers these days and getting a job part time answering calls or teaching some Koreans is far decent than selling flesh. Unless you have tried and found some impediments to these options- then I might say that you have made the right gambles for the realization of your dreams. Good thing that you have remained focused on your goal and is not dazzled by the easy way of getting money and get sucked to it. hahahaha forgive the use of that word but that was unintentional.

That by the way was my conservative self speaking- the vulgar side of me thinks that you are indeed lucky to have tried the trade where you enjoyed what you are doing. So let us get this straight Engr Anthony- so are you gay now? or are you one of those who claim to be  bi-sexuals but purely gay on the inside? I heard that most of the culbams are actually bisexuals or pretentious gays who are looking for some avenues to expel the heat.. ahahhaha expel the heat daw..

Combining the thoughts of my two selves, we came up with a consensus that maybe you did the right thing- maybe not the morally right thing but just the right thing. We just hope that where you are right now, you might be able to help other people especially those of your close kin to avoid getting into situations like yours. There are always drawbacks from learning life the hard way.

So maybe you can take me out for a date? hahahha (that was my flirty self talking)

Kimmy

Munting Hiritera

Dearest Kimmy,

Hello po. Kumusta po kayo jan? Magkukuwento po ako tungkol sa aming kapitbahay na nakakainis na. Pag dumadaan po kasi ako pagkagaling sa trabaho ay nadadaanan ko ang bahay na iyon. Malapit po kasi ako sa katulong nila kaya lagi ko siyang kinakausap. Pag dumadaan po ako ay lagi ko din pong nadadaanan ang anak na babae ng mga amo ng katulong. Naiinis po ako dahil pag tinatanong ko yung batang may 12 years old ay mataray sumagot na parang Vice Ganda. Minsan po nung tinanong ko kung andun sa loob ang katulong nila, sinagot po niya ako ng ganito. Siyempre nasa loob ng bahay alangan namang nasa bahay niyo? katulong nga namin diba? alangan namang katulong niyo? Ganun po ang sagot nung bata. Minsan ay sinabi din niya na pag nagtatanung ako. Ulit ulit na lang? Ulit Ulit? Unli ka ba? ganun po. Ano po gagawin ko sa malditang bata na ito.

Miss Precy of Calamba


Dear Miss Precy of Calamba,

At in fairness sa iyo ay pumatol ka talaga sa malditang bata na yan. Wow lang ang masasabi ko sayo. Napakamature mo naman. I find it natural na ganyan ang bata kasi yun nga nanonormalize na gawi ng pagsagot dahil sa popular media. TV man or sa mga babasahin ay yan na ang pausong paraan. We often find it amusing but true enough, if we are faced with the situation ourselves- we find it offensive na parang we are being taken for granted. Kaya before getting angry at the child, think about those times na nagawa mo din yan sa kapwa mo. Alam mo naman ngayon ay digital na ang karma... Bago mo gawin sa kapwa mo ay gawin mo sa sarili mo.. haha. Di ba tama naman. For one to realize the pain of something, one must go through it personally.

So with that said, ayan na papayuhan na kita kung ano ba dapat ang gawin mo sa batang yan para magtanda. I myself is easily irritated sa mga bratenellang mga chikiting na yan. Unang choice mo jan is isumbong mo sa magulang na bad ang anak.. hahaha ganun-lumelevel ka dapat at tumandang paurong. Pangalawa. isumbong mo na yan sa XXX or sa Imbestigador para di na siya tantanan sa kanyang kamalditahan. Pag di masyadong kaya ang ganun, better report that sa punong barangay para mapag-usapan na ang pagpapatalsik sa mag-anak na yan- just be sure na magblack propaganda ka ahead of time para marami ka supporters sa iyong petition to drive that child out. Outcast kumbaga ang drama jan. 

Tandaan, love your neighbor as you love your dog. haha

Thank you for the continuous support sa blog na to.

Sincerely,

The new and single Kimmy

PS. Kung makakumusta ka naman jan parang kamag-anak lang kita.. hahaha close masyado? next time mare pwede mag qoutation marks ha para alam ko ang sinabi ng ibang tao sa sinasabi mo. Walang bayad ang pag gamit nun. 

Ganda mo Tey

Dear Miss Kimmy,

Sure ako na isa kang beki sa pang-ookray mo pa lang sa mga letter senders mo. Ngayon gusto kong malaman kung ano ang pananaw mo sa usapin ng mga baklang-nagpalit-kasarian pinpayagang makasali na sa mga patimpalak ng kagandahan. Ako din po na isang beki ay naniniwalang isa itong paraan upang maipantay natin ang ating uri sa lipunan. Hinihingi ko po na sana ito ang mapili mo na sulat upang maramdaman naman namin ang iyong simpatiya sa ating mga beki na matgal ng inaalipusta.

Keri tey

salamat,
Back Slash

Dear Back Slash,

My taking your side will depend on the reasons you have for pushing the fair recognition of the LGBTQ community. I do not see myself pushing the issue of us being recognized as women kasi di naman totoo yun.. Ang katotohanan ay nasa LGBTQ class tayo. Doon sa issue ng pagkasama ng mga tranny sa beauty contest na yan, tingin ko lang ay threatened ang mga true blue na gurlash.. Bakit nga ba? kasi mas kabogera ang mga beko sa talent pa lang at sa pagiging witty. Joking aside, it is important that the world start to recognize the inclusion of the trannies on the BPs for it is the more responsible step as opposed to creating a pageant solely devoted to them. Ang pageant kasi ng mga bakla ay may lamat na ang image so whatever we do, people will always see it as a second rate pageant... aking opinyon lang po yun ha.. Kaya on this note naniniwala ako na dapat maging bukas ang ating isip.